I just spent the last 2 hours in our garage pricing things that will be sold in a garage sale, thrift sale, yard sale whatever you desire to call it :oP . . . I don't know that I can do this. . . I know its just things and many of them can be replaced and you know a lot of it wasn't even my stuff but yet it was so hard. . . If we weren't moving we wouldn't be selling many of the things out there. I felt like I was putting a price on memories something that's not easy to do. I don't know that I can do this- the stuff in the garage isn't even the stuff we've fought about wither its going with us or being sold ( those that have moved like this probably understand that comment)
For me the hardest things to let go of our the things I have bought myself....Some of the stuff it seems silly that Im making a big deal of letting go but it was something I bought with my own hard earned money. . . Is it wrong to pray "Lord Im doing my best to be obedient to your will could you make this easier for me..."
I know it will all be ok and all be worth it come Sept. and Im in Alaska and there becomes "home" but right now its just hard to let go....
I went on a cleaning spree before all of that so I was pretty bit worn and so that also add to the emotionalness :oP I got the kitchen cleaned, I cleaned out the fridge, and cleaned off the dining room table, made ice tea, and picked up the living room a bit- I think I did things backwards I should have relaxed outside after all the work instead of before. . .
Joleesa and I sat outside for an hour tanning- and hush to all of those who say "Jenna tan-never seen it" :oP I may not look tan compared to my sisters but I am tan compared to what I normally am and considering I am obessed right now with being outside I'll just end up getting darker- and I have only thus far gotten one sun burn and more freckles then one person desires but God made me that way so I just embrace them- I mean that's all I can do- its to hot out to wear long sleeves and if there were away to get rid of them Id have figured that out by now and taken care of it and not have so many :oP - sorry rambling...
Oh my parents are home from Alaska-thought I'd add that for those that didn't know. . . now that they're back I can't wait until mom takes me shopping to get the stuff for the camp banquet (I get to plan it and decorate it) I am thrilled and I want to get working on it - I love doing that kind of stuff- actually I like doing anything creative- surprise you shouldn't be...Changing my blog all the time should a big enough hint :o)
I'm in the basement den watching "Whose Wedding is it Anyways" on the Style channel (no reason for watching other then nothing else of interest on) but I am sitting in the only chair that is left down here :oP and its left because I think its being thrown and that's the reason I think Im allowed to sit in it- I am so dirty- Im covered in dust and dirt and whatever else was on the garage floor... :-P . I should really go take a shower but I honestly don't feel like moving which is probably why my mom told me to go take a shower before I sat down- yup should have listened...Because now I have to get up before going to bed because yeah this nastiness is not touching my bed... Oh and I also got my laundry- I know about time...
well I've have resorted to major rambling so I'll stop and leave you to a wonderful evening :o)
Tuesday, June 06, 2006
Just Things...
Posted by The Middle J at 3:38 PM
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Hang in there Sweetie. Jeremy probably felt that way more than the rest of us because not only was he having to get rid of his car, but his car audio equipment that he paid big bucks for and several other things. I know that there were moments when he wondered whether it was worth it all, after all, he worked hard for the few things that he had and having to part with them because we didn't have room to take them...I felt really bad for him and for you too. I do know that God will bless both of you even though it doesn't feel much like you are being blessed right now when it hurts so much. I'm praying for all of you. Love ya girly!
~sigh~ thank you for understanding I figured you would comment actually I had hoped you would I knew you and your family out of anyone would understand- I dont want to complain but at times it just almost feels like no one will understand and then wonderful people like you remind me that God isn't picking on me and that though this is so hard right now in the end it will be rewarding...
Thank you for your love and your prayers...*hugs*
As I watched my really nice furniture and my armoires and grills and first ever riding lawnmower and a host of other things that I had never had the privilege of owning before walk out of my house, there were moments when I wanted to just curl up in a ball and cry. As I watched total strangers walk through my house and decide whether it was good enough for them to make an offer on, I wanted to die. It was the one and only house that we had ever bought. I had waited so long for MY VERY OWN HOUSE that I could do whatever I wanted to. The number of nights I stood out on the back deck and stared up at the stars and asked God, "Can I really walk away from all of this to do what you are asking us to?" And to think that I was asking Him that long before we ever got the call. I'll never forget, the week before we got the call, I was standing on the deck, asking God that same ole question, but this time I let out a big sigh and answered, "Yes, I can." From that moment on, there was no turning back, even during those brief moments when I wanted to cry and change my mind. I knew that God had something far better waiting for me than what I was giving up and that knowledge is what gave me comfort during those difficult moments.
God is with you and you will find, once you get there and get busy, that those things that you left behind, will be a pleasant memory, that is if you think of them at all. God will bless each of you abundantly and you will realize that it really wasn't as difficult to give those things up after all. Hang in there Sweetie!
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