SNOW!!!

and lots of it... before I would be jumping for joy and giddy like a little kid but now adulthood has corrupted that excitement :-P I dont have my studded tires on my car yet and it has me nervous. Now I know plenty of people drive (especially in the lower 48) in snow with out studs but it just goes to show how the unfamiliar makes some uncomfortable.

I've got so much to blog about as my weekend was actually productive but I am feeling quite miserable I dont know if I'm coming down sick or if my body is just craving more sleep... I dont know but I'm going to give into that craving and head to bed

Procrastination, Pictures, and Prayer

So mom is going to kill me I put off my laundry again- though I'm sure instead of killing me she'll just say I told you so. I hate laundry its not something I can start and be done with before moving on to another project. No I have to stop what I'm doing and go back to it. I can multi-task like no other but I HATE doing it. If I had my way if I start something I don't go on to something else until I finish it. Which is why I always get frustrated when mom or dad or someone asks me to stop what I'm doing to go do something else. Today I figured out a little bit why that is. When you are doing something creative and all that inspiration is  flowing from who knows where you don't want it interrupted. 

Anyway so I ditched doing laundry to take Joleesa's 20 week pictures at 21 weeks :P  I love my little niece :-) yup I my birthday present (or I suppose if Jo is like Mom and delivers 2 weeks early it could be Jessa's birthday present) is going to be a baby girl. I've never seen an ultrasound done before (outside of fake Hollywood ones) and I stood in that room staring at the screen in awe struck wonder at how fearfully and wonderfully we are made. This little one is just barely 12 oz and yet we could see her little eyes, ears, nose and lips. I thought I was going to have to use my imagination to figure out what she (I was convinced it was for sure a he-I was wrong hehe but I'm okay with that) looks like. With todays technology no imagination needed I almost felt like I met her. 

As I was taking pictures today and looking at Joleesa's expanding stomach I stood amazed that that little life I got to see was in there. When we found out she was having a baby girl I stopped at the store as I wanted to get something for Jo (hehe I've bought alot of somethings for her) and I saw these little shoes she's holding in the picture. Shoe's this little one will never walk in but I pray every time I see them (as they've been sitting on the coffee table) that where those little feet take her that she leave an imprint on the lives left behind - one that will speak of God's love and grace because I pray this little one will know it in abundance.

Of all the things I've bought for my niece nothing excited me as much as when I found they were still printing the  baby book "I'll Love You Forever, I'll Like You For Always"  Mom and Dad bought that book for me one year for Christmas and its is my alllllll time favorite children's book. Well my little niece I may not be your mommy (you've got a pretty wonderful one) but I'll love you forever and I'll like you for always ..... for as long as I'm living

 :-)

Please be in prayer for Joleesa as the ultrasound tech did not get a good picture of the baby's heart. God's got His hand on this little one and I know everything is alright but our human nature fears the worst and on Tuesday she goes back in for another ultrasound and I heard her cry yesterday as they had to postpone it (she was suppose to have it on thursday, then moved it to Friday and now Tuesday). The unknown usually fuels fear but God knows and gives peace.

Oh the Things That Entertain Us Sometimes

I was playing with my phone at work (oh yeah btw I am now a happy owner of the iPhone- which this picture was taken and edited on then uploaded from my phone) and someone through the candy at me and the eyes landed like that on my desk. I dont know how many have seen the annoying Geico commercial but when I saw the eyes and went in search of someone with some cash to recreate the money saving Geico friend.

Here is the original Geico money friend- I have to say I rather like mine better

Just Can't Seem to Blog

I think I've succumb to what many have- I've lost the whatever it is that enjoys blogging. I've sat down a couple times to tell about things going on. My life feels so busy like there such be so much to blog about but at the end of the day it all just doesnt sound interesting enough lol but I'll give it a shot. 

I figure if it doesnt sound interesting to me then why would it be interesting to anyone else. Now this is NOT a oh woe is me complaining about no comments :-P lol....though I do miss them- miss the encouragement.

I just thought about something- when I first started blogging I depended so much on the support and encouragement I got through this blog. Now its more that I dont want to blog unless I can be an encouragement. 

So much has changed...

and so much continues to change...there is a new season in my life coming up ( in regards to my walk with the Lord) that I see God preparing me for. He's dispelling fears I've had and giving me a spiritual boldness and confidence  in my ministry that I pray I can be effectively used by Him. My heart is full of excitement as I've gotten to use my talents in such away that I never imagined. Our Sunday School lesson for tomorrow (which Im now teaching) has me excited- a Call to Commitment - Here I am Lord- Use Me. 

Didn't Know I Could Love So Much

I've had a lot on my mind the last couple months but for some reason this week its nearly consumed it. So much so that I even spaced out mailing Sis Becki's DVD. I'm passed even asking for forgiveness because its unforgivable. I can't even use the excuse that my dvd drive went out because thats been replaced a week ago :( I will however express my sincerest apologizes.

There is something I've been trying to figure out how to blog about but couldn't seem to find the words. The things on my heart seemed so private and personal but yet feel like if I don't express them in some way it all will bust open at some point. 

This news is no secret Mom has shared it on her blog, Joleesa has shared it on her facebook that in March Joleesa will be a mother....

Joleesa is my baby sister- I never really tried to protect her like Jessa did. LOL  Mom and Dad would have to punish Jessa in order to punish Joleesa but I did try to be the example. I did expect so much from her. My desire for her was to be the best person she could be. When she told us the news. My heart broke. Not because of what she was telling us but because I felt I had failed her in some way. May sound crazy but in my own way like Jessa I thought I could shield her in some way but I can't. I've not failed at loving her, or being there for her but I have failed at putting her in God's hands- I tried to be responsible for the burden alone but its not in my power to do so. I can't touch her heart like He can. I can't move in her life like He can. I can't carry her pain like He can. Oh how I want to I mean she's my baby sister and just being there do

esn't seem enough but He is more then enough.

So in just under six months this little one is going to enter the world ( the due date is my birthday March 13) Haha you think I love my little sister I haven't even met this little life insider her and my heart is over flowing with love.  I can't wait to see if it has Joleesa's soft blonde hair or Dallas's dark tan skin. I want to see it's little fingers and toes. I can't wait to hold the little precious life God has chosen to give this family.  I've ordered it a little sleeper that has a camera on it that says "Future Photographer" hehe - this child will be loved in abundance (the word spoiled is not allowed to be used)  

Joleesa and I went through all the baby stuff thats been bought *blushes* I have indeed loved this child in abundance and we haven't even found out the gender (11 more days)

Oh little one I pray you know God's love so real and rich in your life. I'll always love you precious one. 

I think I'm going to love being an Aunt :-) 

Maybe now that I've shared this I'll feel more like blogging... :-)

Sweeeet!!!!

I love getting up in the morning to good news. My boss is in CA on personal business and she emailed me this morning asking if when she got back if I could a family shoot (there's the brutality again) 

Thats an easy answer :P

Nice way to start the morning ......  Except now I have to go to work boo hoo