When Will the Battles End?!?

Today was stressful- it was day 1 of our 2 day sale. I got up at 9 to start organizing and setting things up. We werent suppose actually be open until 4pm but people had other plans and I believe it was around 11-12 that floods of people arrived and continued on that way till 6-7ish. We sold everything major that need to go. I'm all for boxing the rest up and not going through this again tomorrow. I was tired, it was hot and I ran on recycled energy- I don't know how I managed to keep going. Several times I felt like I was going to pass out then I would sit down and try to catch my breath and then I would get up and go again.

I know I am only 20 and many think that we're to be energizer bunnies that can go go go- well Im gone- I'm burnt out-my batteries are dead and I need to exchange them for rechargeables I guess.

It just seems like everytime I get ahold of some joy that something comes up or something happens that makes it so hard to hold on to it. When will this all be over!!! Im tired of fighting the Devil over everything. I'm tired of feeling like one more thing and it will be the straw that breaks the camels back. As the day went on I had the tune to "Just A Little While" going through my head. For the life me I couldn't think of the worlds and I couldnt think of the name of the song so I got out the blue book.

It was the reminder I needed the course says- Just a little while to stay here, Just a little while to wait, Just a little while to labor. In the path thats always straight, Then we'll enter heaven's portals, Sweeping thru the pearly gates. Then the 2nd verse promises- "...Then we'll hear a chior of angels, singing out the victory song, ALL our TROUBLES will be ENDED, and we'll live in heaven's throng"

I've laughed, I've cried, I've spilled my heart, and cried some more and now I'm smiling- because Thank the Lord this won't last for ever- as mom always says (can't quite remember how it goes) We've read the end of the book and in the end we win.

Psalms 51:10-12
(10) Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
(11) Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
(12) Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.

(haha thats a song too - I'm just singing singing singing heehee)


Now the song thats on my mind- its

My Hope Is Built On Nothing Less
My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus’ blood and righteousness.
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly trust in Jesus’ Name.


On Christ the solid Rock I stand,
All other ground is sinking sand;
All other ground is sinking sand.

When darkness seems to hide His face,
I rest on His unchanging grace.
In every high and stormy gale,
My anchor holds within the veil.


His oath, His covenant, His blood,
Support me in the whelming flood.
When all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my Hope and Stay.

Refrain

When He shall come with trumpet sound,
Oh may I then in Him be found.
Dressed in His righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before the throne.

Just in typing this I feel so much better- my tears are whipped, Im emotional and phyically whipped out but spiritual I'm holding strong to my faith and that God will continue to carry my burdens, and continue to supply my strength.... no battle is worth surrendering my faith.

I'm gonna go see what Jo, Jess, and Autumn are doing - oh yeah Autumn is here- and I'm really enjoying having her here. She's great!

I'm gonna do what I told some to do yesterday- smile awhile and give my face a rest :P (yes I know thats another song) As Bro. Smith said about singing-"Thats the best thing we've got going- sing sing sing :o)"