I'll know for sure come Monday but at this point I have the time off for BTI. I'm so very happy but there is a slight glitch Joleesa graduates Friday May 25th and unlike me she'll get to walk. I want to be there for her big day but at the same time I really want to go to BTI. It involves leaving the 12th at 1am and getting in to Chattanooga at 4:25pm (11 hr trip) and leaving out on the 24th of May at 3:25pm and arriving in Anchorage on the 25th at 12am (16 hr trip) and that gets me back in time for Joleesa's graduation....
That involves missing almost 2 days of BTI. Can I still get my certificate for that term (haven't decided wither to do 4th term or LPD) if I miss 2 days??
I'm not missing my sister's graduation but I don't want to miss BTI either considering I've actually was able to get it off. Is this a trying to have my cake and eat it to type thing??? Does this seem like a waste of money? What BTI cost me total last year is just the plane ticket this year...
I don't know what to do??? I need your prayers... I want to be a wise steward of my money, I want and need the training of BTI, I need the fellowship, I need the spiritual up lift but I can't miss Jo's graduation. It would crush her....
I want to cry- why can't something thats suppose to be exciting and easy be just that? Instead its confusing and hard.
Why can't something in life be easy???
*Sigh*
You know what I would love to plop down and throw up my hands and say enough I'm done and throw myself a big pitty party but I know it won't solve anything. I just wish I had the answers. I wish the battles would stop or that I could have a break-it seems like when the light shines through something else is just behind it to take it away...
I guess I said all of that to just say I really really need your prayers... that I find what the Lord would have me to do- what His will is...
Friday, February 02, 2007
I Don't Know What to Do
Posted by The Middle J at 10:29 AM
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Wellllllll...you could always throw your hands in the air, fall on your knees and say, "God, I quit! I give up trying to KNOW ALL the answers to what I am supposed to do. I NEED YOU to show me. I NEED YOUR wisdom and understanding. I NEED YOUR peace in making the right choice, so I QUIT! It is completely in YOUR HANDS!" and then leave it in His hands. ~smile~ I'll be praying for ya! I KNOW what MY choice would be, but I don't know what your choice should be...God does though! Love ya!
Oooooh. That's a toughie. I know the agony to think of missing BTI. I went 8 years in a row (I only quit when that 2nd baby came along and I knew it would be too much!) and it was still painful to know that it was going on without me! I hope you figure out what's best all around... and I sure hope, for your sake, it involves BTI!
As for getting your certificate if you have to leave early, don't worry about it! It'll give you a great excuse to go back next year!!! ;-)
I dont want to miss BTI- I'm not married, I'm not tied down and I want to take advantage of the opportunity while I have it. Your right Becki it worrying about getting a peice of paper is unimportant I can always go back. It would drive me nuts knowing BTI was going on and I wasn't there- One day I'll have to face that I know I can't go forever- hehe such a shame
Thank You Sis. Tammi- you are right *smile* here I'm saying I dont want to through a pitty party yet thats the very thing I did...
I was going to say oh to be young again and not have to make choices but really the only choice I have to make is to open my ears and listen to God's direction
Why is that sometimes the hardest thing to do??
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