I want to live like there's no tomorrow
I want to dance like no one's around
I want to sing like nobody's listening
Before I lay my body down
I want to give like I have plenty
I want to love like I'm not afraid
I want to be the man I was meant to be
I want to be the way I was made
Made in Your likeness, made with Your hands
Made to discover who You are and who I am
All I've forgotten help me to find
All that You've promised let it be in my life
I want to dance like no one's around
I want to sing like nobody's listening
Before I lay my body down
I want to give like I have plenty
I want to love like I'm not afraid
I want to be the man I was meant to be
I want to be the way I was made
Made in Your likeness, made with Your hands
Made to discover who You are and who I am
All I've forgotten help me to find
All that You've promised let it be in my life
On my trip to WA I spent time talking with Momma Tammi and Papa Ray- I hope they don't mind but they are the extended (church)family I never had. I one day hope that my blood extended family will come to know the Lord(if they haven't already- I do have some that our Christians) and be shown His glorious church. But in the meantime I have Bro. Ray and Sis. Tammi
Anyway we were talking about living in a fish bowl/aquarium- and living the life of a pastor or an overseer. I've lived in a fish bowl all my life- the size has been different with each church my dad has pastored and with the different responsibilities this family has accepted. But I'll be honest I've never been where there are so many faces pushed against the glass. I'll be even more honest last weekend as I sat there that Sunday morning waiting for appointments most of me desperately wanting to be freed from this responsibility that my family has but feared would that mean then God would require of us a bigger responsibility. Am I capable of being the daughter my dad would need me to be.
Considering the conversation that took place at a Denny's in some part of WA. I had already been thinking on this and praying about it. Not only praying for what the Lord had in store for us- for our family but what He had in store for me.
If things were to stay the same or to change. All I knew prior to convention was that if things were going to change then me- Jenna was going to have to change for I could not endure what I had this past year.
I may live in a fish bowl but one thing that I learned this year and learned it the hard way is I can't not mold myself into something people may think I need to be because then in the end I end up hindering God and how HE is desiring to mold me.
In such a time as this I can not do this- I've got to learn to stop pressuring myself to be what others want me to be or what I think they want me to be because in the end I'm not accountable to them in the end they don't matter when it comes to my personal relationship with the Lord.
I've got to be who I was ment to be..... I've got to be who God has made me to be.... who He is molding me to be
All I've forgotten help me to find
All that You've promised let it be in my life
All that You've promised let it be in my life
5 comments:
Jenna, EVERYBODY lives in this same fishbowl, they just don't realize it. We are ALL fish in God's fishbowl. Some like to think they have curtains over the glass and nobody sees them or cares about them, but they're mistaken. God knows where each one of His fish are and He's taking record of our activities and our attitudes. You're right about not being able to please people, i.e., the other fish. That will NEVER happen! So, forget about what other fish think about you. Care ONLY what our Heavenly Father thinks. If you are truly surrendered to Him in every area of your life you will find the peace in your heart that passeth understanding. That, in itself, will make some of the other "fish" angry. But, Oh well! My feeling is, since I can't please the other fish no matter WHAT I do, why should I ever even bother? I just want to please the Owner of this fishbowl! That's all that really matters. Amen?
Amen! Sister Smith is right, we can't please all the other fish no matter how hard we try. So we should spend our time pleasing the Father...
But, if you're like me, that's REALLY hard! I always try to please other people because I want to make them happy. This is a lesson I have to learn too! I need to please the Father, not everyone else. :-S
We don't mind at all.
Pleasing God is by far the most important thing in our life. It can be a battle when "pleasing others" is ingrained into our personality or we have been taught to please others. But it is a battle that can be won by the grace of God.
In Kindegarten, I learned, that repetition is the key. You learn it and then do it over and over again until it becomes second nature, until you do it without thinking, like breathing. I have learned the lesson, but I still need to do some repetitive work, because I sometimes forget or get sidetracked, but when I realize that I am starting to worry about what EVERYONE else will think...then I have to readjust and get back to reality...pleasing God. As bull-headed as I am...if I can learn that lesson and actually do it...then so can you and Grace and anyone else.
Love ya girly!
Sis. Smith is right. Each one of us live in a fishbowl. That's why Jesus said for us to let our light so shine that men may see our good works and glorify our Father in heaven. When I was a kid, many years ago, we used to say to my dad, but the pastor's kids do "it", and Dad would say, "I don't care what the preacher's kids do, MY kids are not doing it." Dad wanted us to do what was right in God's eyes, and to be a light to our extended family and to others, even other "church people". We have to do what God wants us to do, even if the Church doesn't have a stand on it, if God impresses us to do something or to be something, we need to obey God.
Has Anchorage fallen off into the ocean or something? You guys haven't posted in days! Get with the program!
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