Not Sure What to Say

I really don't have much to say. I don't feel like talking about moving and packing. I feel like at times that's all I talk about plus I think if I talk about it right now it will come across as complaining and that's the last thing I want.

I'm just down right now. There is so much going through my head that it hurts ~lol~ they says women are spaghetti and men are waffles. Well I feel like I've got spaghetti for brains. Actually in all seriousness I have been having horrible headaches which isn't helping. Today is one of those day that I think I'd either flip out over every little thing or just break down in cry. Right now its leaning towards crying. I hate being this emotional mess. I feel like everything in my life has been turned up side down. Nothing feels normal I don't even know what normal is anymore. I want to be moved already, I want to have a home and work on figuring out what normal will be. I'm ready for all the changing to stop. One can only take so much and I feel like I am on overload and that's just been the last couple months. I don't even want to think back to October when everything started changing I think I would go crazy.

I was looking forward to camp, looking forward to something normal, looking forward to putting my energy into camp instead of moving. That said though I totally understand why it was cancelled and I feel for mom for having to do it and I support her in it. I am happy that the tshirts will still being done- I worked hard on the design and I personally am super happy about it and looking forward to seeing how they will turn out.

Well yet another day that I have yet to accomplish anything before mom gets home. I need to go. I'm sorry if this sounds like a bunch of rambling I guess it shows how muddled up (is that a word) my brain is.

There has been this song that has gone through my head through out the last couple months and I shared it in my testimony at BTI( I read the words-hehe- I don't sing) and I can't remember if I've shared it with you or not.

Through It All

I've had many tears and sorrows,
I've had questions for tomorrow,
There've been times I didn't know right from wrong:
But in every situation God gave blessed consolation
That my trials come to only make me strong.

Through it all, through it all,
I've learned to trust in Jesus,
I've learned to trust in God;
Through it all, through it all,
I've learned to depend upon His Word.

I've been to lots of places,
And I've seen a lot of faces,
There've been times I felt so all alone;
But in my lonely hours,
Yes, those precious lonely hours,
Jesus let me know that I was His own

Through it all, through it all,
I've learned to trust in Jesus,
I've learned to trust in God;
Through it all, through it all,
I've learned to depend upon His Word.

I thank God for the mountains,
And I thank Him for the valleys,
I thank Him for the storms He brought me through;
For if I'd never had a problem
I wouldn't know that He could solve them,
I'd never know what faith in God could do.

Through it all, through it all,
I've learned to trust in Jesus,
I've learned to trust in God;
Through it all, through it all,
I've learned to depend upon His Word