A Little More Like Home

Slowly and penny by penny my little apartment that I share with Jessa is becoming home. Felling like a home, feeling lived in. For the longest time I joked that it was a really expensive bedroom with a nice bathroom.

Yesterday I went shopping with mom. I had budgeted for some things the apartment needed. As I was walking through the stores I had to way between what I wanted and what I needed. The money I had saved up was for a t.v. stand/entertainment center. Its one of those things I had a hard time buying, I could get curtains that would warm the place up but were not as needed because of our vertical blinds. The curtains would add to the homey feeling I so long for the apartment to feel like- to feel like MY home but I passed them up.

When we moved mom and dad gave us their Amish oak end tables. One table was in my room as a night stand and the other is holding Bertha. In case you haven't heard me speak of Bertha its our 30" ancient t.v. that was given to us and weighs probably a million lbs. okay so maybe just 100 something but close.

In rearranging the living room I moved Bertha to the other side of the room. Well correction Bertha made it about 2 feet and then dropped to the floor until she was slid to the middle of the living room until she could be lifted by someone with more super powers then I. I noticed that the surface of the one stand was starting to crack. There are no replicas to these end tables and so there is no option of just replacing one with a new not to mention they are probably 14-15 years old. As much as I wanted so many other things for our little place I knew Bertha needed a new throne to rest upon in order to save one of the few things we brought with us from WI.

I'm happy with the choice and I think it will add to our beautiful little home. Its become so important to me to make that feel like a home. I desire more then anything God's will but as long as we've been here its not felt like home for me. When they say home is where the heart is it is so very true this is home for me right now because it holds whats dearest to my heart- my family, and a few of my precious friends.

Will making my apartment feel more cozy, warm, and welcoming take away the pull to move on... probably not...because I dont really even know what has me so restless...

While I wait for the answers this little place will be called home.